2021.12.04 05:18 1AREZAKS6 اگه پوتک و فرشاد سایلنت به تکپا اضافه بشه
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2021.12.04 05:18 Degenerate_Senpai I think my mom is purposely holding me back from seeing a specialist
I've never had a mental diagnosis in my life, but I know I have depression. My mom knows I have depression. I've had it for the longest and I think it's started to have a deeper affect on me than before. Problems that didn't exist the previous year are now manifesting, like me confusing left for right and saying something completely different from what I read or what my mind intends for me to say. Long lasting problems have pursisted, problems that makes me either overthink or think too little and it lessens my skills of paying attention to my surroundings, following instructions correctly, recalling events and information, and comprehending certain conversations. My mom is aware of these problems and is very quick to calling me out for misunderstanding certain instructions and tasks. I notice these problems pursists when I'm around her, and it feels like I have to walk around eggshells to make sure these problems don't happen or else I'm going to awaken the Gordon Ramsey inside of her. She often complains how many times she's had to correct me on certain things and even yells, "I REFUSE TO BELIEVE MY SON IS THIS MENTALLY CHALLEGNED TO UNDERSTAND THIS BASIC, SIMPLE THING!" I've told her many times that these problems are hard to avoid, and it's not like I'm conscious to what I'm doing wrong. It's something outside of my control and at this point, after all these years of making the same mistakes, this is something I need to talk to a specialist about, because I believe it's either my depression or a mental disorder or two preventing my mind from working at times. My mom says the same thing in response, "Okay, your medical insurance should cover seeing a specialist/ Okay, we can look into doing that/ Okay, we need to find some specialists in the area that you can talk to."
Despite this, she's still quick to call me out for these same problems and still treats them as if I'm conscious to avoiding them even though I'm not. She does nothing to help me find a specialist despite what she says and I think it's on purpose. You see, my mom is physically and emotionally abusive. I've endured a lifetime of abuse. This is a mom who threatened to stab me with kitchen knives as a discipling tactic when I was 8-13 years old. Not even for discipling, but for anything. If I had a stomache and I cried too much, she'd tried to shut me up with the knife. If she believe I'll say no to something, she'll use the knife to make sure I say yes before trying anything else. This is a mom who scratched my neck, punched and slapped me and threatened to call the cops on me despite her doing all the abuse and me trying to move away from her. This is a mom who publically berated that 'she hated me and I should go live with my deadbeat father.' If I did see a specialist, I think one inevitable question they ask is what's my relationship with my mother like? And recapping all the abusive stories would get my mom in trouble after years of her getting away with it. If she's not worried about getting in trouble, then I believe she just doesn't like the idea of me possibly talking about her behind my back. Whatever the case may be, it feels like my mind is deteriorating everyday and I'm tired of having these problems being treated as if they're something I'm conscious to recognizing and avoiding, especially being around a mom who's so quick to jump on you before mistakes even happen and provoking anger in you. She's what leads to misunderstandings most of the time, not wanting to make herself understandable nor approaching the way she says things to be understood, and my brain is poorly adjusting to it or something? At this point, I feel like I need to act crazy in order to get her to take me to a specialist or something. Even if I need to break shit and even get arrested as a way of telling her 'THERE'S SOMETHING MENTALLY WRONG WITH ME!'
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2021.12.04 05:18 DefauItboiii What if we don’t get pleasant park next chapter ?
2021.12.04 05:18 YouPlantTube GTA 4 Niko Bellic Plays GTA 3 Mission #4 - Drive Misty for Me - Funny Commentary
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2021.12.04 05:18 FightingDraco Confused about staying On-campus or Off-campus
I am planning to move to Australia this February. In youtube, I have seen the tour of Swinburne On-campus Shared Apartment and I really liked the 4 Standard Bedroom Apartment which costs 268 AUD per person weekly including all bills. But everyone has said to me the rent of On-campus residence is way higher than the off-campus residence. But until now all the 4 Bedroom apartments that I have found cost like 200 AUD weekly excluding all bills.
Can anyone who has stayed on-campus residence pf Swinburne tell me that-
i) Is there any hidden cost in Swinburne Accommodation?
ii) If I stay on campus, will the overall cost of Accommodation be much higher than staying off campus?
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2021.12.04 05:18 KurisuYen "#1", my first art for rarible, link in comments
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2021.12.04 05:18 Black_knight96 [PS4]H:Qffr15r tesla,B50c15c enclave plasma rifle with stabilized stock, reflex sight and aligned flamer barrel and BSSS Super sledge W:offers (no caps, ammo or Junk)
2021.12.04 05:18 Decent-Recognition97 Gino Soccio - Remember (1982)
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2021.12.04 05:18 Act-Status Question
Hi, so I’m wondering about the age for my Symphony 3 Grenadilla Leblanc. The model number says 129B and well I’m curious about the age haha. But I’m not sure whether to upgrade or get the clarinet overhauled.
The only issues I see are some corks needing to be replaced and a crack on the bell. My clarinet professor told me it’s worth overhauling but at the same time. He told me it might be time for me to upgrade to a new clarinet if I have the budget.
I’m a music education major and I perform in multiple ensembles. I just want to know what might be the best choice.
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2021.12.04 05:18 FortniteZebraLozzy Space Monkey Idea (and upload schedule for c3 changeover)
Okay quick mini Idea that I don't have much evidence for but it semi explains all the brutes and weapons votes this seasons.
All the funding and wepon votes have been controlled by the Space monkey skin. And because he's a spacemonkey who's to say he didn't bring wepons and brutes for the Chapter 1 island.
Then he made his way here (took him a while) and gave us old wepons to fight the Queen. (Or wepons IO have restricted)
THEORYS SCHEDULE . Straight after the event, I will do a post breaking it down. . And then another post with theories and questions . When C3 roles around I will do a season 1 review . I also have theory in the back of my mind i would like to start chapter three of with . Any teasers that come around I will also break them down when I get to them (I need sleep). I will probably break them down individually then create a post with all of them on once season 1 starts.
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2021.12.04 05:18 krueger_pagol I hope y'all like memes, didn't see a rule against it either..
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2021.12.04 05:18 Enderbro_go_brrr Cursed_grandmadeath
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2021.12.04 05:18 TheVetheron This Day in Victorian History William Magear Tweed "Boss Tweed" (Tammany Hall, NYC) escapes from jail (1875)
2021.12.04 05:18 P1ckleboi69 My guild is so lazy with bonus quests smh (appearance bug)
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2021.12.04 05:18 AIverson3 Anti-vaccine protestors attempt to storm a media building in Melbourne
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2021.12.04 05:18 INFINITY_y Can sharpness 1000 "one shot" the ENDER DRAGON...
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2021.12.04 05:18 TrippyInk002 Eye for an eye for an eye for an eye
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2021.12.04 05:18 reggin-RBB1 shit i found on deviantart
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2021.12.04 05:18 Justin_Ganz Supporter song/chant list
Hello there I was wondering does anyone know where I can find a list of new chants for this season to chant at home or sing since I don’t live in the UK?
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2021.12.04 05:18 bluesrv Found this painting in the wall while playing FFXIV, thought it didn't look fruity enough so I fixed it.
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2021.12.04 05:18 Ready-Natural9640 Nowadays, almost all news and social media are propaganda towards their beliefs. They will hush anything that doesn’t fit their narrative.
We need to enlighten ourselves and read between the lines to understand the tactics used to control us. Understanding how they worded it to fit their agenda, what undeniable proof is presented, and question the source even if their image is upmost trustworthy.
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2021.12.04 05:18 Hotrod369132 "I didn't pull the trigger."
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2021.12.04 05:18 FurSkyrimXB1 Would like to ask again if someone could port an updated version of wander weather to xbox. We have version 2.0 but the current version is already 3.1.
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2021.12.04 05:18 CloningLikeBuu Which superpower would you want the most of all?
2021.12.04 05:18 Ethiopiano Ethiopia closes secondary schools for a week to ensure food security not ‘boost civil war’
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